Danna, I just followed your link to this story. March 6 was just about the time I found Medium, so I don’t think I’d met you when you published this.
Your story is filled with honest introspection, and ends on a note that is healthy and mature. I would just add that loving yourself and loving another are not mutually exclusive states. In fact, if you are solid in the first one, as I believe you are, then they are mutually empowering.